Sometimes ...

Sometimes I still get jealous of how easy it is for some people.

No, I wouldn't change this journey for anything.

And I still feel blessed that we have been chosen for this crazy adventure.

But, sometimes ... it would be nice to not have to fight so hard.

Sometimes it would be nice to be given a CRAZY AMAZING blessing without even having to try.

But sometimes that doesn't happen ... and that's the place we are in right now.

And it's still a blessing. But it's still hard.

I want this more than anything ... but some days the waiting is painful.

I'm ready for the day where I cry more happy tears than painful ones.

I know that day is coming soon ... so soon ...

But sometimes I need to just be real with how I'm feeling.

And in this second of time,

my arms are aching ... and I just want to hold my baby tight.

I've learned that sometimes the waiting is hard.

And sometimes the waiting is painful.

That sometimes in the waiting tears are shed.

But in the end God is Always glorified.

And another orphan will find a home.

Until then ... sometimes it might be hard ...

but I'll continue to hang on to the hope.

And I'll continue to hang onto the faith that my Father knows my heart.