Again...

A broken heart.

Want to know what that looks like???

Come take a look into mine.

I'm a sobbing mess right now.

I really believed this was going to be it ...

I really thought that I was finally going to be a mommy.

I can't even describe how excited I was.

I feel like I keep slamming into brick walls.

OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

I'm tired of hurting.

Enough is enough already.

I talked with the agency just a little bit ago ... the b-mom had her baby yesterday ... she has decided to keep her.

And I don't judge her at all ... I know that in her heart this is the right decision ... and I totally honor that.

But it doesn't make this heart of mine ache any less.

I'm tired of hearing that God has the perfect baby for me ... please don't tell me that ....

I know He does.

But why go through THIS MUCH heartache to get there?

I can't really describe this pain ...

Some how beauty will come out of this ...

It just hurts like hell right at the moment.

Please pray for us.